Hi Eeyore!

i wonder how happy people stay happy. they have no reason to cry, no sorrows to brood about, absolutely no gloom. they are always in smiles, ready to do anything to keep others happy. may be thats how they stay happy.

i wonder how sad people are always sad. they always think about things that cannot be undone, and dwell in melancholy always.

sometimes i take the avtaar of Eeyore, the donkey. morose and mournful. nothing seems bright in life. and if i do find something bright, sadness overshadows all the joys that find me.

many a friend to hang out with, talk to, spend time with. but i feel i am this complex character that nobody, NOBODY EVER can understand.

there are so many orkut profiles i have come across, that say "my friends know more about me than i do" and stuff. but in my case, "not even i know about myself" . i really do wonder if people like me exist. i expect too much. i am happy with the few people that i know and like. no one else is all that important to me.

u can never trust a friend these days. secrets never remain secrets. it affects certain friendships. ok, fine, let me find friends within the family. that has taken me a long way.... family and friends are never the same. on second thoughts, would it be better to treat family as friends and friends as family? it confuses me.

i really DO NOT understand the difference . not that all have cheated on me, not that i don't want to trust anyone. would it be fair to blame the for making me an inconspicuous character, ultimately?? because, the search for happiness ultimately lies within you. but, there is something that bars the way, when i set out to do things to keep everyone happy. what is that something? its a whole universe around me. so many people... but, the more i reach out, the more i get betrayed. fear of trust. trustophobia :D

i prefer to stay curled up in my own shell. or cocooned.

my only mistake is... EXPECTATION... expecting reciprocation. expecting unconditional love. expecting a shoulder to lean on, no matter what.

u know, staying away from the people u really really love, makes u think like this. u DON'T want to trust anyone else, to the extent u love & trust ur loved ones!!

NO WONDER PEOPLE ARE SAD. THE WORLD DRIVES U CRAZY WHEN U ARE ALONE.

sacrifice a few things, to be with the people u love. it more than compensates for the sacrifices u made. CONSTANT AND UNTARNISHING LOVE, AFTER ALL, MAKES U HAPPY.

now, i AM a complex character... huh? ;)

this blog of mine... sheesh! i love u darlin' :)