drowning in a pool of tears

one boy checked the depth of the water with an iron rod, in the tank near the canteen.
a few others surrounded him. they were all looking at the tank which was partially covered with asbestos sheets.
i could see a little crowd as i was coming out of the canteen with my pals, a bar of chocolate in hand.
i asked a friend , " what's happening???"
he replied, " a little puppy drowned ".. i froze with terror because i love puppies. oh poor little puppy :(

a man was getting into the tank. it was quite difficult as there was no proper foothold in the tank. my friends went equally blank and we were standing there, blinking, but praying real hard.... we saw the man haul up the puppy. it was wet and shivering. he handed it upwards and placed him on the ground... he rubbed its chest and squeezed some water out of its little lungs and tummy. the puppy's ears drooped even more and its eyes got filmy and it could barely see and breathe....

its stared a little, there was terror in its eyes..... its head drooped as the man tried in vain to revive the puppy back to life. it died in a few minutes.

it was an extremely cute puppy, a light-brown stray Labrador that couldn't have been more than 3 weeks old.. its tail was a cute little thing. tiny paws. it looked so cuddly. i would have loved him for a pet.

i tried not to take it hard on myself. but the poor puppy's lifeless body brought tears to my eyes. i prayed for its soul to rest in peace.

when i narrated the mishap to others, between tears and cheek-wiping... i kinda expected all of them to laugh at me. but then, it was good that they could understand!! it was like a baby dying. who cares if its a human or an animal! it was a living being and a puppy at that... whatever be the form of life, the souls are all the same for all living beings.

i request all readers to take precautionary measures to avoid such mishaps in your surroundings. life isn't a joke.

i wish that tank was fully covered. the puppy wouldn't have drowned at all. it would be happily prancing about, making all of us laugh. i wish i had known enough to save the puppy's life.

i am going to learn about such stuff even if it is going to sound scary. and please, u folks must learn about it too... u could save a lot of lives!! after all, not many know the value of life.. today, it is a cheap "commodity" ... and it is high time we understood it and made a difference to the surroundings.

hey puppy, we' ll miss u a lot...

a gift to remember

while i was returning home in a bumpy auto that shook all my bones, i was wondering how i could spend a lazy Sunday afternoon.

first, lunch :)

i felt like doing something different. yeah...different.. like rummaging a magazine holder full of CDs. Yay! i didn't know i owned CDs. :D i discovered the booty when i went to hunt for stapler pins.

i emptied the holder. i saw 4 movie CDs... naah.. not interested. 3 music CDs. wow! and yeah... one CD given to me by my best friend here 7 months ago. :| poor thing. i DECIDED to listen to them today . it had 12 Malayalam songs. i listened to 3 of them. was very very impressed!!

i saw a few other CDs i was not interested in. and then i found one. it didn't say anything. i had a hunch... because i remembered something that happened nearly 2 years ago.

i was leaving the place. he came up to me one day.. a few days before i left.. and said, " i have a little surprise for u." "what is it?", i asked. "something u'll definitely like", he said..he smiled.. his typical smile. he thrust something into my hand. it was a CD. he told me what it was. i was overjoyed. i brought it here. and there, it went with a few other CDs. i played it for 2 minutes only. and then, i forgot about it. (i am so very remorseful about that).

And today, while i was doing a "different" thing, i found it. i played it. It was, one of my most favorite books made into a movie. A CD of the movie. "A Walk To Remember". he knew i loved the story. my other friend loves it too. she and i used to spend hours in the school library reading the book over and over again.. we would sob together.. hehe... that book gives me a lot of memories.. :) great days!

I thought of him and the day he gave it to me. what a thoughtful gift, i thought, for the second time. (the first time was when he gave it to me.)

i watched the movie. wept.

he is a great friend and brother ....... he is sharan :)

and to the other great friends back there... thank u for the thoughtful gifts. i have everyone of them. :)

they are gifts to remember and cherish.

miss u all...

hari tum haro :-) :-) :-) :-)

Rules:
1. Put your MP3 player on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what. No cheating!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY?” YOU SAY?

Pray for me brother - ARR

:D :D

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

Mudhal naal indru- Unnale unnale

:|

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

ragasiyamai- dum dum dum

:| :| crap

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

boulevard of broken dreams- green day

hehe.... i walk alone , i walk alone

:D i was fine all day.. but right now.. erm...yes.. :)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?

i like birds- eels

:| ........................................ :D :D :D BIRDS??????? :P

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

KAL HO NA HO!!

HEYYYYY THIS IS AWESOME COINCIDENCE!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

woh ladki hai kahaan - dil chahta hai

:D :D :D woh ladki hai yahaan :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

kisna theme (instrumental)- kisna... (shabbbbaa)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

mangalyam thathunaanena ...- alaipayudhe

:D hello... i am still 19 :P

WHAT IS 2+2?

summer of 69 - bryan adams :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

ballelakka - SIVAJI :D

wat does ballelakka mean????

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

color my world- BSB

:)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

kannukku mai azhagu kavidhaikku poi azhagu - pudiya mugam

bleh?? :O

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

keladi kanmani padagan sangadhi :|

now i am the girl ok? so according to the song, i have to be the listener. :O a listener without interrupting. its so tough :D

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

oru mugamo iru mugamo- bheema

:D

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

mouname unnidam andha mounam dhaane azhagu- mozhi

rofl rofl rofl.. wonder how they would react :D . i am laughin my heart out :P

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

vara leela gaana lola - unnikrishnan

its a thyagaraja composition, CARNATIC.

i cant dance, btw.

:| :| :|

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

anjali anjali pushpanjali - duet

hey it IS "anjali"!! :) thank u thank u.

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

ya ali- gangster

??

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

kannamoochi yenada- kandukonden kandukonden

:D this says it all ;)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

veyilodu velayadi- veyil

:D

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?

hari tum haro- M.S.Subbulakshmi

:)

sometimes...

• sometimes, life is good...sometimes bad.
• sometimes friends stay with u, no matter how low u feel, or how low u actually are ... sometimes, they move on, as if nothing ever happened.
• sometimes, a friend trusts u, no matter how crappy u might sound, (but he/she's GOTTA trust u) ... sometimes, he/she makes u feel u are wrong in all possible ways. u cant help but feel desperate to let ur friend know.
• sometimes, u are fine after u eat an ice-cream...sometimes, when u have not been having ice-creams knowing it isn't good for u, u get a cold. now thats frustrating, especially if u have to cancel plans owing to illness.
• sometimes, u think u are surrounded by awesome characters, lest should u realize they are mere back-biters... sometimes u think u couldn't be in worse company but u realize those people make a huge lovely difference in ur life.
• sometimes, u think people think u are a show-off ...sometimes they think they haven't seen a lovelier person, before meeting ur highness :)
  
• sometimes u let your "friends" take advantage of u only to realize a few FACTS (ahem)... sometimes, u don't let the REAL friends take even a teeny-weeny bit of liberty with u and u yell at them only to realize the FACTS after its too late.
• sometimes u think u know the world...sometimes u think u are the most ignorant idiot ever.
• sometimes u dream big, full of energy and optimism...sometimes u feel u just cant change the world.
• sometimes things seem SO ON TRACK and something happens to make them go OFF TRACK... sometimes things seem to be going wrong altogether, and lo!! SURPRISE and u burst into joy.
• sometimes God plays with us and we don't realize it ... sometimes He is real serious and we don't realize that either.
• sometimes u feel like being forgiving to back-biters ... sometimes u think they deserve a taste of their own medicine.. (u are THAT helpless and sad!)
  
• sometimes u think u don't have to give a damn for anything, who cares!...sometimes u feel its ur responsibility to ensure things go well.
• sometimes u think God has a reason for everything that happens to u... sometimes u feel its unfair and u just don't deserve it.
• sometimes, love seems to be for the fickle-minded... sometimes love seems to be for the strong (mentally).
  
• sometimes, its best to express emotions and feelings... sometimes its SO wrong!
• sometimes, u take it in the right spirit when u are mocked and u laugh along... sometimes u feel u have to stand up for urself when ur the "FUN ELEMENT" of the other clowns.
• sometimes u feel ur decisions are right and they turn out to be wrong ... sometimes u make the wrong decisions which change ur life for the better. (now that's DESTINY!)
• sometimes u trust the wrong person and end up in a mess, hurt and depressed... sometimes u don't trust the right person until the right thing happens.
• sometimes, u wanna live for at least ONE, sometimes, for NONE.

life has both ups and downs. life has a balance. good and bad do exist.life is this. life is that.life is blah, life if blah..

hehe. but i am 19. sometimes a kid, sometimes an adult :)

people can think whatever they want, about u.
people can crap about u.
u succeed, u fail.
BUT U ARE WHAT U ARE!
and ONE DAY, THAT "U" will be recognized. so be original.

NO COMPARISONS please!!

u are SO special to GOD that He has something special and exclusive ONLY for u!

the mouth that can talk, do talk.., the eyes that can see, do see.. the ears that can hear, do hear..the brains that can think, do think.. the hearts that can feel, do feel..

NO ONE (BUT GOD) CAN CONTROL ANYONE...

I AM WHAT I AM.